Joy

花了点时间读完了Mitch Albom的the five people u meet in heaven。

看着密密麻麻的专业课实在是不想看，思来想去决定去找本书打发打发时间，在微博看到了推荐就去图书馆搜了搜，刚巧看到了原版就借走拿来看。

真的是很暖心的一篇小说。虽说是讲述死亡，并且连故事开始的第一章就叫The End，但其实看完反而会给人以安心的感觉。
就像Mitch在序中说的，这里的天堂，也是一种祈愿，让那些觉得自己不被需要不被重视的人们意识到，“how much they mattered and how they were loved.”

“All endings are also beginnings. We just don't know it at the time.”
五个人，关乎五个关键词：fairness, sacrifice, forgiveness, love & self-redemption.

The blue man对Eddie说
“Fairness does not govern life & death. If it did, no good person would ever die young.”

看到上尉说，
sacrifice is a part of life. Sometimes when u sacrifice sth precious, u are not really losing it. You're just passing it on to someone else.

看到Ruby关乎宽恕的那一章（虽然Ruby这个名字在看完spn之后总带着来自某个角色的固化式思维），看到她说
“Hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves”的时候

看到Marguerite对Eddie说“Life has to end, but love doesn't”的时候——

无法克制地想到前两周读完的fan fic “Twist and Shout”，想到Cas在信中说
“I’m so tired of being angry, and sad, because that wasn't the point… Being sad about the things I miss isn’t loving you. It never was. Loving you was so much bigger than that.”
在Cas死后Dean也在反反复复地问自己，他也想要迁怒，
“it wasn't fair that the world got to keep turning without Cas”。
但也正是因为失去了Cas，他才终于知道自己该怎样去做，该怎样活下去，如何走出当初将他们分开的PTSD阴霾，
“He was going to keep his promises from now on.”

He’s gone, but his love for you never ends.
Love never ends.

——所以读完了这本书，多多少少也算是安慰了一下我自己读完twist & shout之后的玻璃心吧。

——“所有的生命都是关联的，就像是河底的鹅卵石，一个牵连一个。”
Eddie自认为在人世间毫无价值的人生，正是他生命价值的所在。有时你的错误可能导致别人为你买单，而有时你无心的举动又让他人逃过一劫。
在天堂等候他的五个人解答了他对于一整个人生不同时期的疑问，而死亡也不再是终点，而是一种新生。

那人生也不全毫无意义，你所做出的每一个影响他人的举动，或好或坏，都是你曾经存在的证明。

“The world is full of stories, but the stories are all one.”

写得乱七八糟，就当记录一点感受吧。